Its hard to write something down like this and even more how i have to describe it properly so you will understand exactly what i mean.

But honey i miss you appearance around me, even when we did our own things at the same house in one room, in one house. We talk to eachother through skype now. But its not enough for me. I cant feel you now.

And i really need you to, cause i have to live here without you for 1,5 years. Yes, we can have sleepovers in 5 weeks. No, i cant wait for it.

I need you twentyfour hours a day, seven days a week, for a lifetime and whats after.

Without you it feels like im dying inside and i cant think straight anymore. Without you im hopeless, confused and disapointing. Like a flower without water.

I love you with all my heart and i thought i could do this but i think i cant, what is living on my own without you around me.
I want you here with me.

I would fight for you to have you here, but i dont know how.
I love you.
♥